PERSONALITY DISORDERS (NARCISSISM AND BORDERLINE) AND RELATIONSHIPS/INCEST.
(Journal of Random Concepts, 2009)
In analyzing my relationship, and considering the ties between Borderline Disorder, Narcissism, and even pedophilia, incest, and mental/sexual dysfunction in general, I think I have been able to conclude even more.
--Sexuality being at the center of it, at all times, of course. I think that Borderline Disorder, and all personality disorders seem to tie into one another, and people with these disorders, or traits of these disorders (sometimes one, sometimes more) cluster together. For the borderline, falling in love with a narcissist makes perfect sense, on one hand. The borderline is typically female, emotional, child like in her needs, her emotions, and the regulation of them. Or, lack thereof. But, because of this she is primal, and sexual. Sometimes hyper sexual. The fact that borderlines are typically abuse survivors also plays part in her sexuality which almost always borders on purely primal. Seductive.
Additionally, many borderlines have narcissistic parents. Narcissists are prone to incest based on their raw desire to have sex with themselves, the child coming closest to that. A child raised by narcissists has been conditioned to deal with them, and therefore most likely gravitates towards them when seeking lovers, because of this. It's the blind need to be with those who remind us of our parents. And, the borderline is cut out for dealing with a narcissist. Narcissist's thrive on adoration, and worship. And, while borderline's tend to devalue, they also tend to greatly OVER-VALUE, much like that of a child, giving blind worship to those around them, when their own emotional needs are met.
I think that much like the way a narcissist (in my opinion) can be prone to pedophilia ("child love") because of the adoration children provide (and ability to be manipulated), it works much the same way for the narcissist when dealing with a borderline, who is essentially a (physically) grown-up child.
I've been thinking more about obsessive relationships. And, narcissists, tied in with Borderlines (and the other co-occurring personality types, and/or disorders). It all seems to tie into together, in a lot of ways... I think the borderline tends to be extreme, because of her unpredictable emotions, and therefore easily obsesses. Borderlines are a bit of everything, moody, irrational, impulsive, neurotic, self-centered, yet compassionate. Destructive, downright crazy, sometimes. The narcissist feeds on this type of women, a women-child. In need of saving, which ties into the "hero" type of narcissist, perfectly. Plus the borderline is conditioned from childhood on how to deal with narcissists, usually growing up with at least one parent who has traits of the disorder. And, narcissists are prone to abuse, and prone to incest, for numerous reasons. Partly, because they are sadistic to an extent. Another part is because they are in love with themselves, more than anyone. Having sexual impulses towards their children is the closest they will get to having sex with themselves, their one true desire. And, narcissists objectify. The Borderline loves being objectified, partly because of past abuse. Again, this may be all that she knows. She also mistakes this possessive, obsessive behavior for love. I am vaguely aware of this.
One other person who comes to mind: Wojteck. He was obsessed with me. But, like any TRUE narcissist, he was delusional. Tricked himself into believing I liked him, maybe even loved him. I had NO romantic interest in him, whatsoever. But, again, most likely being a borderline (at least as far as my personality "type," we'll say, goes) I tied into his narcissistic needs perfectly. I attract narcissists as both friends, and lovers.
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